i wish this was an inspiring success story : The Hidden Dragons

hello, i think i am on day 81

right now i have been thinking again about touching myself as if i could relapse, which i did not. it's been more than two months of NO Porn and NO Masturbation with a few not important wet dreams.

i am a bit lost in life... i can't be trusted by people, i struggle with assuming some responsibilities, (i am not certain if i want to have my degree as a last year student this year) i feel like a traitor, and i don't want to show up at school. when i masturbate and look at porn this could make me numb towards the situation. now i am no longer fogged. i feel the pain of not moving up my to potential... i had trouble last night sleeping, my heart was aching, for real, it was a physical pain. because i feel like a traitor... i went to see a psychologist to talk about it, he told me to ask myself for the next days "where is my loyalty going". which i don't know for the moment.

so long story short now i am feeling pain because of ... something in my life? ... that i was not able to feel when i used to burn myself with porn and masturbation.

even though its painful, i am grateful... the truth is closer to me. thank you, be safe out there, however you can manage it.

if you want to talk, is there anything negative that stopping porn made you face ?


i wish this was an inspiring success story, but i am not at 100 Days (personal goal) yet.

-silex