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Hey man, sorry to hear you are feeling like this. Sometimes life can be overwhelming and scary and get the better of us. But in the end the power is in your hands to make a change. Start small and work hard toward your goal. NoFap is the obvious one but there are a lot of small things you can do to feel better. How is your diet? Do you exercise? What are your hobbies? How is your social life? Something as simple as a vitamin deficiency can make you feel depressed, I doubt you are low in Vitamin D living in India but it might be worth checking you can.

 

I’ll admit that I don’t know your situation or anything about you but I’ve heard those same thoughts many times before from people I’ve loved and honestly every time they were completely wrong. You shouldn’t live for other people and even forgetting that, you’ll never know how anyone truly feels about you from your own perspective. I’ve known people who live inside their heads so much that their view of themselves is completely deluded.

 

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through man. Do you know for sure that being gone would be better for those around you? It sounds like you're in a difficult place where all there is to focus on are the negatives. Don't discount them, but are there any positives you can see in your life? Even if you do feel like a failure, it's hard to imagine you are a failure 100% of the time. What about the 10% of the time you are a source of goodness in the world? Focus on that, and keep aiming up. Don't let porn win. You are worth fighting for, man. Fight for your self. Don't underestimate the pain that might take your place if you are gone.