I logged on today because I want to confess something and in doing so unburden myself. All I've been doing for the past few days was sit in bed, watch TV, go to training and sleep. Besides Jiujitsu and a little bit of Yoga, I'm spending a ridiculous amount of time watching TV in a day. I hate what I'm watching. I want to be doing other things, but, for the life of me, I can't bring myself to do anything else. I'd jump out of my seat at the prospect of meeting a friend, but for the most part, I haven't been productive at all. AT ALL. In Jiujitsu, often times people complain to the professor that the techniques he's asked us to drill on our willing opponents don't work when applied to their opponents during sparring i.e when their opponents are no longer willing. I've actually never had that problem. Not that I'm a prodigy or anything, I just use the techniques I was taught the way I was taught. If they don't work, I suspect that's because my opponent expects them, so I switch it up, surprise them with another move then go back to my technique. Sometimes, I'm fast and explosive. Other times, I'm slow and calculative and I grill them with pressure. I've never learned a technique that I couldn't replicate in a sparring match, but all I had to do was be patient and be open to the right opportunity to apply said technique. This popped into my head just now because I feel like I'm on the other side of this problem now. I'm on the side that's starting to feel that all what I learned isn't working but instead of Jiujitsu. I'm talking about life. Get up early. Journal. Practice gratitude. Exercise. Socialize. Sleep. Stretch. Stop drinking. Stop smoking. Family. NoFap. Semen Retention. Work on yourself. Journal some more. Momento Mori. Accountability partner. Podcasts. Be on time. Read. Make your bed. Journal again. There was a time I was doing everything right and that time ended. Now, I'm not doing anything right. I barely have a sleep schedule. I barely journal. I barely practice gratitude. I barely exercise. I try to spend time with family. You see where this is going. What happened? What am I doing wrong? Where do I go from here? What's the keystone action/habit that will get my life back on track? I'm tired of the same damn room, living the same damn day, and doing the same damn crap.