Idk what to do anymore

I started watching porn in I think July last year, I remember I got introduced to it from a friend of mine who did it a few times..
We were chilling in a bus stop and I remember I told him why he watches porn wich his reply was he liked it alot.
Now I knew back then what masturbating was a little but I never tried it out untill one night I was alone in my room and I searched it up and boom that was my first time ever masturbating to porn. then next day came and before u know I did it every other night
Its been a year later and Im still adicted to this
It even got to the point I masturbated to almost everything, Anime, characters I used to watch in cartoon seris, people out of movies, people I remember on the street, even classmates I used to be friends with or were in my class when I was younger.
I tried to stop for first time 2 weeks ago and I manage to not PMO for 5 days but then in my bed one night I really felt like I wanted to PMO again and I did it again
I tried again 2 days ago and this morning again I failed
It feels like all the dopamine I used to get from other things became PMO and that only
Now the friend who used to be a friend back I talked about has a GF and he told me he had sex with her and felt amazing and I have no one, no one likes me
I have like no hobbies I was thinking of exercising but I have depression and horrible anxiety sorry my english and spelling is bad because im stupid
thanks for reading
plz anyone there? help

 

Thanks for these motivational words man now that u mention It made me happy a little and I will try again next week

 

Will try asap next week

 

Hey everyone
I tried again to not PMO and it lasted few days but It feels like my spirit is not interested in porn anymore and I feel really happy because It felt like I got more energy
sorry to say but I did it again this morning BUT...
I wanna keep a update on how it goes
I start again next week and I will not give up this time
The goal is to reach trough friday!

 

This is very true and I will work on it

 

Its been a month aaaand....
I tried but the temptations are so big and I did it again
I will probably do it again this night, it is so hard because I get instant pleasure from this and its so hard to let it go
BUT OKE I will try again next week, NO EXCUSES, NO JOKING AROUND THIS TIME
THE IDEA IS: IM GONNA DELETE MY SAFARI ON MY PHONE AND DISCONNECT MYSELF FROM IT SO I CAN NOT GET ON IT AGAIN
I hope this works
( I start next week because I wanna give myself little more pleasure this weekend... Im just bored and I cant find anything to do but guys I promise
myself I will start next week to stop for 1 week and see how that goes)
My highest record was 4 days 2 weeks ago and after that I felt like going back and yeah I did go back
but its ok because I will try again next week
I will tell God to help me with not going back to pmo
have a good night if you read this at night

 

Hey guys,

Its been awhile again
It sucks to say this but I did it again yesterday..
I blocked my safari phone and put a passcode on it but everytime I find a way around it
I have no self discipline at all and I gotta stop this but im struggling with the temptations and its not easy to not think about it
I feel like I cant sleep at night if I dont do it and yes eventually I will relax and fall asleep but Its harder to fall asleep especially
when I think about porn all the time
I GOTTA STOP THIS BUT ITS LIKE MY BODY NEEDS THAT DOPAMINE
One thing I notice is I get more vivid dreams often but when I pmo Its like I just deep sleep myself to the next day
I remember this one time It was on a sunday I didnt masturbate for once and I got a lucid dream! It was my first lucid dream ever and there were people with me in a room and we were flying out the window and it felt soooo amazing
I WANNA REPLACE PORN WITH SOMETHING ELSE IF I ONLY KNEW WHAT COULD GET ME THAT SAME DOPAMINE LEVEL I WOULD REPLACE IT IMMIDIATELY
AND NOT GO BACK ANYMORE
I was thinking of working out but I cant really find any motivation
I barely have friends IRL so it will be hard but I guess I can face it as a challenge
I know I can do it but It just feels like if I get rid of all the pmo I will have to suffer and think about getting that dopamine and it just doesn't feel good
I really dont know If i should ask anyone help...
I guess I have to walk in defeat like anyone else

Sorry for all the ''I'' each line