If there hadn't been PMO in my life

Aniket2000

New Fapstronaut
Hello,
I am sharing a detailed story my struggle with PMO.
When I was 6 years old I accidentally saw a sex scene from a Bollywood movie called "Murder". Since then, I had been fascinated by the idea of sex and used to have to dreams about it. When I was in 7th standard, I was introduced to porn by my cousin who is 2 years elder. But I started fapping at the end of 7th std. The habit got built in the summer vacation and continued in 8th std. I started slacking off in my studies, and I became very irritated. My marks started dropping and I was no longer the topper in my class. Even my teachers started asking me what was happening. I started to realize that this is all because of fapping but I didn't know that fapping is very common. I used to think that I am the only one doing such a thing. Then in turn of events, I decided that I will change the school and got enrolled in a military school which had no access to any digital device or internet. There I learned from my seniors that fapping is common. But there it was in very much control though I had planned to completely get rid of it, I changed the decision when seeing that it was not a problem as I was perfectly following the routine and studies. I even got the 'best student in academics' award at the end of my 10th std. I came back to my previous school for 11th and 12th std. But I was not worried about my PMO. so I started doing it regularly. After some months I started seeing the bad effects of it on my studies. As I was preparing for JEE, which is India's one of the toughest entrance exam for getting into Indian Institute of technology, I was having too much of pressure and I used to release it by doing PMO. But that wasn't a good strategy. Eventually, I hit my bottom because of poor academic performance and fapping, I told my parents about my struggle. They took me to a psycologist. The session was not very helpful but I abstained for a month but again relapsed. Despite all this struggle, I did well in JEE and got a 7K All India rank and got into biotech at IIT Madras, which is India's best tech school. Here I am now but still struggling and not getting good grades in my courses.
I just imagine how much more I would have achieved if I had not fell in the trap of PMO. But my past is gone. It's not in my hand but I will get rid of PMO, once and for all. My future is what I have in my hand and I won't leave any chance for my future self to regret.
Wish me best!
Thank you.
 
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