If this what a flatline is like?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by CheshireCat2323, Feb 25, 2014.

  1. CheshireCat2323

    CheshireCat2323 Fapstronaut

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    I'm about 11 days in, and today I just felt so down. I didn't want to do anything but lay in bed and sleep, the only productive thing I did today was show up to a job interview for a seasonal position. At the end of the interview I was told that they will be interviewing the other applicants and will get back to me. (I know what that usually means) When I got back I just wanted to lay in bed. Even now I don't want to do anything, I have work to do but I don't feel like touching it, I just want to watch movies until I fall back asleep.

    Is this apathy, general disinterest with life, and depression the "flatline" people talk about? For the past 10 days I was feeling really good, strange at times, down at times, horny at others, but this is just awful. I lay in bed thinking about how shitty the world is and how nobody gives a fuck about anyone but themselves and I hope to spontaneously combust or just die in some mysterious way so I'll be dead but people won't be sad that it was a suicide, and everyone wins because everyone loses. Alright, enough ranting...
     
  2. Freddy

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    Yes. Welcome! Now you're experiencing slightly depressive symptoms, this is caused by "missing" dopamine in your brain (or rather missing dopamine receptors). You have to go through this, you're on cold turkey. But try to do something, the more physical the better! Sports, go for walks, make music... It will go away! Your brain will build up new receptors.

    I've also experienced what you've described (had a little relapse a week ago) and I'll possibly feel the same again in a few days.

    So let's get through this, I want to be clean and cured!!
     
  3. seth

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    While I may not be one to speak, as I'm still in the "weird" stage that you mentioned before (of sometimes awesome, sometimes horny, sometimes dull), you should really do other things to make your journey go along. I'm in college and I'm focused everyday to have a productive one (just the nature of going to a difficult college) and I found this helps pass the time more than anything. Just like Freddy said, find something regular to do, and try to wake up every morning with a goal of doing something productive. If you want to waste your day, then enjoy it! My takeaway message is to stay positive. The whole community here believes in you!
     
  4. pursuitofchocolate

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    As Newton's first law of motion says, an object in rest stays in rest, an object in motion stays in motion. Even though you're feeling down you should get the strength you have and do things!

    The hardest part is starting. I also find it suuuuper hard to work when I'm down. But one of the things that works for me is changing my environment. Ik if I lay around in bed then I won't get anything done. So to make it easier you have to go to a place (library, coffee shop) where the environment motivates you to work---or even puts you in a better mood so you can work.

    You can always make small goals. Like okay I'll only work for 20 minutes. If I still feel shitty I'll stop. 9/10 after 20 minutes in you see that the work you had to do wasn't all that difficult!

    Well, good luck and feel better.
     
  5. CheshireCat2323

    CheshireCat2323 Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for the non-judgmental and genuinely helpful responses. I did end up doing some productive work but didn't get to it until 1 or 2 in the morning. I'm typically the one offering people the advice to just set goals, even little ones, and stick to them, lol! I think the severe depression might have been from a combination of the withdrawals and lack of sleep since I've been on a very strange sleep schedule the past week
     
  6. This is what I have been experiencing some days? Any disconnected feeling from your penis like "deaddick"?
     
  7. nofap88

    nofap88 Fapstronaut

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    whats deaddick? i think mine died.
     

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