I'm a creep.

I have a problem.

I'm a creep. I don't know what to do about it. My fetishes unfortunately revolve around being a little bit of a creep. They revolve around turning something innocent into something sexual and manipulating women into believing they are engaging in the innocent version of these things when, in reality, I am living out a sexual fantasy. I creep around on social media. I comment suggestively on TikTok videos. I don't DM random girls quite as much, but I have before. I am a creep in my female friend's DM's, all while having a girlfriend myself.

I'm a mess. I feel so much shame. I feel as if one day it's going to catch up to me, whether or not it is in the form of being caught cheating by my girlfriend or being publicly exposed for my predatory behavior. I feel so far gone. I feel as if I have made so many women uncomfortable. I'm not trying to get anybody to feel bad for me, as I don't think there is any excuse for what I am doing. Quite frankly, I would beat up another guy for doing something like this. Yet here I am.

I don't know what my goal is here. I don't think advice can be given. It's just a problem and I feel as if airing out my dirty laundry might help me in some way.