Im absolutley destroyed, orgsam during sleep

I have just passed 40 days no PMO. And i havent looked at at regular pornsite since 2020-04-14. I've cut away social media and been doing real good. I've dealing with a lot of mental demons but been fighting on. Everything has been going good.

Until now, i woke up 30 min ago early morning find myself orgasming, the pants al wet. I woke up find myself sort of dryhumping the bed. The latest night i've had sexuell dreams and everyone have been that i in my dreams are looking at porn.

Lately i've had similiar dreams that im about to orgsam during sleep/dream but finding myself waking up and felt i big realief that i didnt, but now it happend... I have never in my life had orgasm during my sleep.

I still dont have any erection during morning (i had some weak during frist 14days), and it was pretty much soft i think when orgasmed.

I woke up absolutely destroyed. I've been batteling this for along time and felt termined to make 90 days and this shit happens! I'm about to have an anxiety attack. I dont know what to do...

It feels hopeless. Since im notting watching porn or other provocative materal the brain takes over during the night to get the "fix".

Why did my body make an orgsam after just 40 days?? It feels hopeless and i feel that my mental state is bad. I've reached i point where mentally i wouldnt handle a relapse. I've done anything i could to avoid and been doing good. No social media that triggers, dealing good with live triggers during summer.

Please, how do i continue.. And how do i do with counter?

 

Thank for your replying! I makes me feel better. When i woke up i totally freaked out since i've never had this happen to me and i assumd that orgasm was negative and i relapsed. I tryed reallyt hard this time and got confused.

It does bother me that the erotic dreams are so frequently pornlike, i've had som where it with a person. But alot is pornlike and sometimes i even see the screen and i scroll and see image in my head. Then waking up and realifed that i didnt got back to porn. I somestimes think in my dream "Oh no, i went back, damn!" and then i wake up.

Maybe i need patience and give it time since i've been watching porn since 12-13 (32yr today).

And your right Thecolonel about the day counter, i actually hate it. I have focused so much on it during the times i started this and i often jsut do one thing; stress me out that the days aren't where i want them to be (to low).

I need to look at the positives that as you say, i've been abstaning porn and other provocative material and masturbation.