(Sorry for my english, it's not my first language.) I'm not even sure if it belongs here but i need to talk about it somewhere since i think it's one of the biggest reason that make me relapse again and again.. Let me put you in the context: I'm 19yo almost 20, i fap since i have 7/8 yo and i've become really addicted to pmo when i was 16, i didn't have any job and i was bored so i start to create many porn accounts (twitter, tumblr and many pornsites ). i watched and post (not my own stuff) porn all day long, i was into almost all things: extreme torture, degradation and humiliation of both genders, incest, rape, zoo etc... and in the end i've fell into illegal stuff (that was one of the reason that make me try to stop it). It's been 1 year since i try to stop it but my longest streak is only 15 days. It might sound very stupid but i'm afraid of what i could become without porn and sexy stuff in my life, this is the only thing i've ever known, i have zero experience with girls and the only very rare times i had an occasion to date one i refused and watch porn instead... i don't even remember what my life looked like before porn... What should i do? In the last year i tried almost everything: meditation, exercise, read, try to stay busy but nothing has really worked... And i really want to change, i have big plans for my life and i know i have to quit porn to reach them but i'm just...lost. I think very often that i should completely give up, recreate all my accounts and try to live with it but i... i just don't know... I've even noticed that i start to have some erectile dysfuction with any kind of porn wich is scares me alot since i never had a gf and when i have one i want to be able to perform, but even knowing that i still don't know what to do anymore... ... What do you think i should do?