I've dug myself a hole so deep I see no hope of ever climbing out of it, I went 20 days and then it all fell apart I can't even go 1 day without looking at porn. I have no motivation to do anything except porn, I can't think straight I can't look at people in the eye, my confidence is shot down I just hate this! The worst part is I can't get out of this cycle. I want to but it's like there's a switch that goes on in my brain and controls me to look at it. I swear I'm at the lowest point in my life right now. I just want to die. Please help!