I'm in the flatline and I'm going through the worst time of my life. It's turned into a living hell. I'm depressed, I have so much anxiety, I've become pessimistic, I'm struggling in school. Things have never been so bad. I knew it was going to be bad when I hit the flatline, but I didn't think it was going to be this bad. I can't think straight and I'm not getting homework done. I'm almost always depressed, I'm not enjoying things the way I used to, I feel hopeless. Honestly it feels like nothing will ever go my way. I still have some hope that things will get better, but it's slim. I'm thinking about doing all these drugs to get me out of this pain. I just can't take it anymore. I can't live like this. Will it ever get better? Will this pain ever end? I just need a way out. I'm actually starting to think that I'd like to work for NoFap. I'd just like to warn kids about the dangers of porn and masturbation. I hate how people think watching porn and masturbating is totally normal and that everybody does it. Porn really is the new tobacco. If I have kids one day I will always keep them busy and make sure that they don't fall into the trap that I did. I'm so lost and so hopeless. I've been having a lot of thoughts of suicide. Does it really get better? Will it ever get better? I talked to the social worker at my school and I actually told her about my addiction. I just had to tell her. She got it out of me. At one time in my life everything was great and I was happy. Those days ended when I became addicted to porn/masturbation. I feel like I'll never be the same. This flatline really hit me hard. It's unbelievable. One thing that I noticed though is that I'm thinking much more clearly. I'm amazed at how clear I'm thinking. I just need some reassurance that things will get better. I've been talking to God and just hoping that things will get better.