I'm officially leaving this page because I've accepted that sobriety is hopeless. I have relapsed so many times and hurt myself, my job, and my family because of my addiction problems. I'm weak, and I've always been week. To those looking for hope or determination to go on and struggle through life, here's my advice: Give up now. Fuck perseverance and fuck goals. People are only ever going to hurt you and bleed you of all your emotions. If anyone here actually stays sober then good for you but I actually don't fucking care. I'll never be happy whether Im sober or not so what the fuck is the difference? I used to have so many aspirations and plans for a wonderful life but I have come to realize some people are just doomed to live shitty lives. I am one of them. So this is me giving up and signing off officially. I've lost all hope for myself and everyone else so fuck this world and all of its constant bullshit.