That is really sad and everyone in this forum can understand how far hopelessness can drive you. However, I would like to ask you about what you are going to do now that you have given up? I mean what specific things are you going to do if you gave up the fight. Please try to come up with an answer if possible and don't reply with a simple "I don't know". And second question, do you expect anything out of your plan? It does not matter if you let go of your life aspirations and more. They will make you more depressed than you already now. But of course, you will have a better time reflecing upon those in the future. At the moment, what you may need is a cure. Taking a break from this community may help in some way. It will clear your mind and create yourself a new start. I suggest you go retreating yourself in the countryside if it's possible. It does really help. However, if there is no possibility for you to do so, disconnect yourself from all the digital devices around you for a few days, read books, meditate and get in touch with people. Go seek a world out there, far from distractions and technology. ----- It is OK to feel like this. Lots of people do. I personally thought of giving up to abstain myself from PMO. I had similar thoughts about how my life was designed to be a loser's camp. Whoever teamed up with me always lost and failed. Even with the most simple tasks. I thought I was a negative-vibe spreader. Whatever you do, take some time to heal. Spend it with people you love. Listen to positive music (I suggest you Jason Mraz's "Living in the moment" and when you're feeling better, "3 things"). Allow yourself the right to have a lazy day. Learn about some meditation techniques. Laugh (with the help of Charlie Chaplin I suggest. Research on some ways to deal with depression and rejection. And finally seek professional help. To share you my personal story, I dealt with my depression by embracing it. I embraced the fact that I was depressed. I embraced the fact that everything just went wrong in my life. I embraced the fact that I did not have to live a happy life and put on a smiley face mask 24hours a day. Ignoring your feelings does more harm than good. After that, I practiced thankfulness over the little things that I could be thankful for. I was mostly thankful for each member my family. I was thankful I could have spent moments with them. I was thankful I was still alive and still be able to breathe, see, hear, touch, smell, feel. This was hard at the first time but practicing thankfulness does improve over time. Of course, these are just tips to help you get along with what you might be feeling right now but they do not in any cases substitute to a professional help. Last thing (lol), be proud of what you have gone through so far! Stay blessed!