I'm out.

let me just say this. Every year i get a glimpse of happiness and every year it is taken away from me be it by my own stupidty or outside factors i havnt felt happy in a long time recently the love of my life left me the women that i wanted to have kids with ( i always hated kids but i wanted them with her) not the point. The point is i always got up and fought and never gave up. Many shit has happened to me and many more will that i am certain but i belive in two outcomes.

First one day i will trully be happy
or two i will go down like a man

I will not lecture you because that is not my place nor i beive you will listen just one word of advice if you can look at yourslef in the mirror and be happy that you see a quieter then quiet but if not man up then.