I'm Philomath.

I'm Philomath.

Analytical and studious by nature. I love learning, and aim to learn as much as I can about the whole porn-brain relationship. With things that are helpful or harmful to us - I find understanding the mechanisms helps to motivate change (in my experience.) I'm a bit of a geek when it comes to hormones and brain-chemistry. So feel free to throw studies and such at me!

I have a personal stake in this as I suffer from DE, delayed-ejaculation or death-grip. It takes me hours to finish, and pretty always by hand no matter who I'm with. So the idea of Oing without that...intervention is really exciting. I don't think I have severe PIED, but I certainly don't get as hard or aroused as I would like.

Now this is much more tricky to articulate. I'm bisexual, but prior a year ago, I was gay (or self-identified as such.) It was in fact through a life of porn that I think I very-slowly developed a bi-curiosity for girls (go figure). And now I have a girl-friend who I have explained all of this to. Unfortunately, due to the DE and lack of sensitivity I can't get as much pleasure from having sex with her as I like, though I enjoy giving her pleasure. She's worried, funnily enough, that if I rewire my brain I may actually revert to a default state of being gay. But as long as I engage with her during the 90 days plus, i'm hoping I'll strengthen my associations with her. Yeah, I'm all sorts of weird - but hopefully it adds a new perspective on things.

I did manage 2 weeks before joining this forum, and then broke it. Now starting again with the hopes of reaching a full 90 days.