I've been cutting back from porn and somewhat masturbation. I do it like every 3 days and I started doing that because I was question my sexual orientation and I was getting into some really sick shit that I would do to myself. I'm pretty certain now that I know I'm not bisexual or gay. It was a rough time for me when I was trying to figure out what I was. I was depressed and pissed off all the time and worrying a lot. I suffer from ocd which wasn't helping it at all. Yesterday I felt great no worries I felt like myself again I thought all the worrying was over and I could focus on my life now. Well this morning I woke up and started thinking about all the stuff I did previous to cutting out the porn and some of it could've been seen as sissy shit and god knows I really really don't want to be one. I never wore dresses or anything I never felt like being a girl. I literally want to be the manliest man I can be. Never fantasized about a guy screwing me. I do like anal though. I use to eat a certain substance after masturbating. ( you know what I'm talking about) and I use to deepthroat things and I was a little into femdom.I hate saying I ever did that stuff. Just typing it now is making me question am I gay again but I never feel like having sex with guys. I never see a guy in public and be like yea if fuck Em. I was doing so good until this morning now I'm just as worried and depressed as I was before? What are some signs that you're a sissy? I can't focus on anything else because I gotta know. I don't want to be one. I may sound like I worry too much but I was just want peace of mind.
I'm scared I'm a sissy and I don't want to be?
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modernstore99
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Hey man you should join the group of people recovering from sP (sissy porn). Not only do they have lots of success stories about guys who were doing hardcore sissy shit and now are regular dudes, but they also post a lot and link a lot to the reasons why guys get into sissy porn and why it's hard to get out of; for real though, just look up shit like "why do i like sissy porn" or "why do guys get addicted to sissy porn" or anything along those lines. The fetish is specifically crafted to prey on the insecurities of men. For example, I think I saw a user quote a caption once "Girls aren't attracted to me". Guys with low esteem or confidence might think "hey that's me", and some sP caption might say "it would be hard to get a girl to like you" so the unconfident man thinks "also true", and the caption finishes with "it would be so much easier to just become one!" It's all about this twisted weird logic that's in a positive feedback loop with our masturbation habits and self esteem issues. The sissy fetish is all about getting insecure to males to believe that they don't have the willpower or natural gifts to have a relationship to a girl, and then getting those men to consider becoming a girl. This consideration is amplified by the fact by the fact that we're aroused and masturbating. Almost like a woman seducing a guy with low self esteem to get what she wants, the sP uses the assumption that we're aroused and masturbating, to implant thoughts and ideas in our minds. It's kind of ridiculous when you sit back and look at it haha. I think that guys first get latched onto it because it's taboo and different, getting penetrated, wearing female clothing, being a girl; our mind is constantly searching for new material to have sex with/masturbate to, which is healthy and normal. Then when more degrading and humiliating captions and vids come along, guys with higher self esteem think "Hey, I'm confident in myself, so I don't want to be ridiculed", and shut the computer off. Guys with lower self esteem think "This is kinda weird, but I'm not gonna stop cos I've felt ridiculed/humiliated before". Once a man masturbates while watching sP, even though the idea of being a woman is humiliating, the brain equates pleasure (masturbation) with being a woman and being humiliated. Once that trickle of a connection is made in the brain, it turns into a river every time we engage in sissy activities.
Meditation Monk
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Interesting read, I have only read the beginning of why and what is sissy porn. I just rather spare the gory details because I am having withdrawals symptoms from my porn addiction and not get more involved into silly things like sissy porn. 
Good read though.
Good read though.
modernstore99
Fapstronaut
Interesting read, I have only read the beginning of why and what is sissy porn. I just rather spare the gory details because I am having withdrawals symptoms from my porn addiction and not get more involved into silly things like sissy porn.
Ik I kinda got carried away haha, but really just like look into why guys in general get stuck into sP, and (idk your case, but if you are stuck in sP) especially examine why you did. Think of your life and emotions at the time you started looking at the stuff
Meditation Monk
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Nope. For me it just started out as normal porn and then it became an urge and then a habit and then an addiction. But now I am getting off my addiction with my withdrawal symptoms.
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Sometimes this can happen and is a side effect of escalation, the "normal" no longer being enough and your brain seeking out the next more extreme thing until you end up where you were or even farther.
It's natural to worry about this but try not to, focus on getting yourself away from PMO, getting mentally and physically healthy and then how you feel.
No matter what you find, you are you and to be free is a blessing no matter which way it goes.
It's natural to worry about this but try not to, focus on getting yourself away from PMO, getting mentally and physically healthy and then how you feel.
No matter what you find, you are you and to be free is a blessing no matter which way it goes.
Like ive never watched it I always thought it was weird but just the stuff I use to do which ive quit now. Its making me think that maybe I was somewhat of one. Like Freddiefox said I think me liking that other stuff was just from me escalating to a higher dopamine rush. Im pretty sure I was always thinking about a girl but I was usually high and drunk or at least one of them and it was hard to concentrate on anything else sometimes but how good it felt. I think I worry too much is another problem. I kind of think Im just making myself believe im into the sissy stuff. I have cut the porn out and I think im going to just cut out masturbating too. Im going to try to do a 90 day nofap if I can. Thanks guys for the replies.
Carbon6
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I too was into sissy porn for awhile. At some point I picked up the Porn induced fetish of Anal, which lead me to Anal Joi, which led me to femdom, which lead me to sissy porn. Sissy porn was when I realized I had an issue. I began questioning my sexuality constantly.
I want you to ask yourself one question: Is it the thought of a man that turns you on, or the thought of a penis? If its just the thought of the penis. You're likely just conditioned into it because of all the hypno shit.
So trust yourself, your sexuality isn't gonna change just because you don't masturbate. So my advice, start a reboot, get yourself on a week long streak or better, it gives you alot clearer of a mind so you can see for yourself that you're not bi/gay.
In fact if you don't think you're bi/gay I'm positive you're not. Convince yourself of it by just taking a step back, because that shit really fucks your mind up.
I want you to ask yourself one question: Is it the thought of a man that turns you on, or the thought of a penis? If its just the thought of the penis. You're likely just conditioned into it because of all the hypno shit.
So trust yourself, your sexuality isn't gonna change just because you don't masturbate. So my advice, start a reboot, get yourself on a week long streak or better, it gives you alot clearer of a mind so you can see for yourself that you're not bi/gay.
In fact if you don't think you're bi/gay I'm positive you're not. Convince yourself of it by just taking a step back, because that shit really fucks your mind up.
Nothing about a man turns me on I think I was making myself think I was getting turned on when I was questioning myself. I never have watched sP and don't plan too. I just worry a lot about what I use to do when masturbating but it was all for a "rush" I honestly probably would've got into some really messed up shit if I didn't stop when I did. No more PMO for me though that shit corrupts your mind.