I'm scared.

Hi,

I'm not sure what's going on with me, so I came here for advice and help.

I started watching porn in high school, around the age of 16. Back then it was tame and mild and it didn't screw with my mental health or anything. Honestly, I think it was quite normal and I had a normal life.

I've had plenty of sexual relationships since then without any problems. All the while, I still watched porn and it never affected my relationships or my ability to perform.

Then, about two years ago I went through a terrible break up. Afterwards, I guess I tried rebounding too fast and I went through several relationships where I had difficulty getting hard. Either I was too upset about my breakup or just simply wasn't attracted to these women and thus I couldn't perform properly. As a result, I turned to porn to get off.

Now, two years later and sexually unsatisfied I started realizing that porn had become more than just a distraction, it was taking up a large part of my day. I'd come home and just masturbate to porn. It was a couple months ago that I started having less firm erections while watching porn. Then, after being with another woman and still being unable to get hard I felt terrible. I tried for almost 30 minutes to get hard for her and ended up orgasming while my dick was still flaccid. I felt like I was broken.

So I did some research and discovered this NoFap stuff. I initially tried it out in a trial fashion. I stopped watching porn and didn't masturbate for about a week. Then I masturbated and felt fine. I thought I was cured.

But the past week I've been freaked out because when I try to watch porn I can't get hard from it anymore. And this freaks me out. I also have trouble getting hard even when thinking about things that used to get me hard easily. I don't think I'm desensitized but I think my anxiety is tripping me up. I keep orgasming without getting hard. What is wrong with me? Can anyone relate or help?

Thanks,