I'm seeking for support for a new and better life.

Hi everyone,

I would like to share my story with all of you. I hope to get some support, so I don't have to deal with this alone.

I'm 36 years old, married and have 2 children. Nobody knows of my addiction and I would like it to keep it that way.

- I have an addiction to porn. While at work, home or in the office, every second I get, i'm tempted to visit porn. And I'm wanking 1 or 2 times a day.
- I have a foot fetish. I don't think that having a foot fetish is a problem. But my problem is that every tv-show or movie I watch, i surf the internet to search the female actress feet. It's the constant urge to find and search for hot pictures of feet. Or when we have guests, and the take off there shoes, i'm smelling the shoes once they are in the living room. It's becoming an unhealthy situation.
- And then there is the waste of money on webcam sex or prostitutes. And sometimes I even find men to suck of getting sucked.

Last weekend I decided that this has to stop! And it has to stop NOW! In my search for online help, I found this forum. I hope it can help me.
Yesterday, I did one last wank (on purpose and without porn)
Today, I started by deleting al my porn accounts, and fake e-mailadresses.

Thank you for reading this. I hope I can do this on my own.

 

Thank you for your reply and your support! To be honest, I don't think a fetish is something bad, as long as it doesn't control your life.

But i agree that for now, it is beter not to get any sexual stimili, from any medium whatsoever.

I think my fetish was formed since I was a little kid. Apparantly I was always under the table smelling everybody's feet. At the age of 14, I noticed that I got sexualy aroused by female feet. So I don't think I should battle the fetish, but my out of control behaviour.

Thanks again for your support!