I was planning to watch a movie today but found out it had some nudity so I refrained from doing that. Then decided to move on to a show I liked but it had some triggering girls so I gave that up too. Felt like I couldn't do anything which prompted me to write this. So I can never seem to handle my triggers. My longest reboots have been thanks to me avoiding triggers all together and living like a monk. But as the beginning of my post implies I really can't do anything if I'm just avoiding them all. Can't watch or read anything that I'd like to without there being triggers for me. Watching certain shows that have the slightest bit of resemblance to the porn I watched, like seeing a character that reminds me of some feature of the porn I used to watch triggers me. A big one is seeing an attractive girl on screen and getting aroused by her makes it feel as if I'm watching porn again because she isn't real after all, I'm seeing her through a screen. This is how I ended up relapsing in my last attempt, I avoided looking at any girls for a month then the moment I saw an attractive girl on screen I got so aroused so fast and immediately relapsed. I can't seem to watch, read, or listen to things freely without some little thing triggering me, or reminding me of the porn that I watched. It could be sex being referenced in a book I'm reading, to even seeing an attractive girl in a show that I'm trying to watch. Sex is just everywhere. Triggers for me are everywhere. These reminders and triggers always get me easily aroused and the arousal makes me feel guilty. Then the guilt makes my mind think "Hey you looked at something stimulating and got aroused, you've already failed, might as well fap then" the GUILT is a big thing that gets me every time but I'm sure this is just my addicted mind combined with my OCD and me being a perfectionist. Should I just try to go through my triggers, see that they aren't porn and tell myself I'm not watching or reading this in order to be aroused? It seems like the only logical thing I could do, otherwise I just won't be able to enjoy any kind of entertainment. Plus there are some shows I like to watch that have very triggering characters to me, I'd actually look up fan p of these women when I pmo'd . It almost makes me feel like I can't enjoy these anymore because of my addicted mind. Like I have no freedom to do anything. What do you guys think?