I'm struggling!! 106 days pmo free, 37 days hardmode!

So im in need of some brotherly support heh! This past week has been HARD! I was lucky as i started nofap when i met my GF so i think thats why i found the whole process family easy as i had a means of release once a week, but now it's been 5 weeks since she left and another 4 weeks until i see her again and i'm going mad! I think this is also mentally affecting me as i have fallen in love with her since she's been travelling and i miss her loads.

These urges are so strong...The need to release, the need for an O is strong! I've been having battles within my mind, "go on look at porn, it won't hurt" or "One orgasm from masturbation is no biggie, you know you want to" I feel like I'm going mad when I'm at work, it only gets slightly better when i have finished work and gone to the gym to workout like a madman on coke or something, well thats one benefit is suppose with all this sexual tension and frustration, i'm working out like 6 days a week and there extreme.

i do feel a lot more aggressive, not so much towards people but for life, if i guy stares at me, i'll stare him out, this is happening quite regularly even when i'm at the gym and it's big guys that stare at me, they look away first...I just don't give a f**k. also getting more stares of women and i actually smile back!

The only problem is I'm constantly horny which doesn't help when my GF sends me naked pictures unannounced, but another good thing i get random solid boners throughout the day, so easily, like just from thinking that i will kiss my GF again, r looking at a picture of her face, so that's completely new and their harder than i can ever remember!

Just need some advice and support thought as these past few days i have been really close to relapsing and it's took all my strength to not masturbate

 

Hey thanks for that, well i've told her everything and she's been massively supportive, especially when we were first going out and it was on and off ED...She has been great.

HA! she has a super high sex drive, pretty much masturbates daily with what she has told me, i think that one is out of the picture! I think she lasted 4 days when i last told her to do it heh!

I am definitely coming out stronger, every time i resist the urge. I just didn't expect it to hit me this hard this far down the line.

 

Ha yeah it still going to be fucken epic haaaa! She sure is!

it's not so much the want of fapping anymore, just to O i mean the feel of O when fapping is nothing compared to when i have sex with my GF, it's out of this world. I'm fully recovered from wanting to watch porn now, it's doesn't do anything for me, that day or two was just a test to see if i would go back to my old ways but i stuck to my guns and persevered and i've come out stronger then ever now!! I've just never gone this long without O so it really is a complete shock to my mind and them days my mind was just finding anyway to rationalise to try and get a O if that makes sense.

 

Well i can't see that happening any time soon

well i can't see that happening any time soon, um nah i don't think so no. Im not just with my girlfriend purely because of sex, yeah sex is a big part in our relationship as intimacy is a big part, but it's so much more we grow each other, make each other happier, my life has improved dramatically since being with her.

at the same time i don't rely on her to expect to be with her constantly as we are both strong and self reliant characters and need our own time as well.

i think a lot of people when starting nofap start to see relationships and having sex with partners as a bad thing and a hindrance to their progress, but for me i started nofap to become a better person, to not be addicted to porn or masturbation and to improve my sex life and confidence surrounding this, which is happening and continuing to improve!