Ok, so.. since last Monday when I lost my girlfriend after confessing to her about my PMO addiction, I couldn't handle my heart being broken. I feel that I can't go on without her. Knowing that I terribly screwed up during my relationship with her, I can't cope with it, and it was my fault. I decided to find a way to win her back. It took me two days to work on it to send it to her by e-mail, because she blocked me on facebook. Ok, so.. here's my letter. Let me know what you guys think. If there's anything that can be fixed, let me know. Here it is: "Dear, Jennifer: Let me be the first to say, happy Valentine's day. I'm only dropping by and hoping that everything's all well over there. This will be my last message that I will send you for now on. And yes, it's long. You don't have to reply to me if you don't want to. But I wish for you to take the time to read it all the way to the end at least for once. Please? About our last conversation that we had. I know you were very angry. It tore us apart. I never wanted to lose you that way. I know you don't want to be any part of it, but let me explain what I've done after: I thought about what you said to me about figuring it out, and I already did. I've realized that what I've done to myself can also hurt everyone else that I love and care about the most, especially you, even without noticing it. It's truly a difficult thing to handle. I know you do NOT have any tolerance for porn, and neither do I. That's why I left this addiction past behind, and it's for the sake of my own life, to be better, and to be free from it. I truly see and respect women as human beings. I won't lie to you on that. Plus, when you told me your reason you had a divorce from your ex, I didn't know about that before, and I'm truly sorry for what happened back then. It was never my intention to try putting you in this when I asked for support. It was never my intention to drive you away like this either. Knowing that it was wrong for me to hide something terrible that can affect us. It's not fair for you. It's not your fault, It's mine. I completely regret screwing up. The reason I never told you about this before is because I was afraid, I was terrified, I was a true coward. And I was very irresponsible. I have no excuse. It was my fault for causing tremendous pain to you. I have already faced the terrible consequences, I have faced my worst punishment, I have paid the massive price for it, and again, I left the addiction completely past behind. Just because I've made the same mistake to myself many times before, it does NOT mean that I will keep doing it. I'm not a bad person.. I never was. And I'm not a pervert either. I know much better than that. I'm only learning from my own mistakes, to make sure it won't ever happen again. Everyone makes mistakes. We all do. And as frustrating as it can be, but it's part of life. I already accepted my responsibilities. I wish to start all over and I wish to win you back. I became ready to grow. Please, don't ever block me anymore. Don't be done with me like this. I know you think I don't deserve you anymore because of my confession, but all I ask of you is one more chance, to show you my redemption, to show that I can change, and that I can be better. I truly mean it. You don't have to trust me, but at least give me one more chance to be better. I still can't give up on you, and I won't. I've failed you terribly, but I will never fail again. When you blocked me, I felt completely devastated. My heart was shattered to pieces. I cried my eyes out. I couldn't even breathe. Knowing that I lost my best friend in the world that I have known for many years had left me feeling broken and dead inside, without knowing what to do. I believe that the reason you blocked me is not only because of my terrible confession, but also because you learned that I'm mentally and emotionally weak. Well, I won't allow myself to feel that way anymore. And since you've known me for a very long time, you also know that I've always been nothing but nice, and sweet, and cheerful to you all the time, because I care about you. Think about the days when I made you happy, when I gave you all the love and joy everyday. When we even talked about our own mistakes. When you were sad, I made you smile. When you were alone, I gave you company. When you were feeling down, I cheered you up. When you needed someone to listen to your songs, I was there for them. Don't let our love end this way. Don't let it go to a waste like it's nothing. I can't live without you. You're the only person who I've talked to everyday. Well, I don't know what else to say. But if you can take the time to find a little space in your heart to forgive me and accept me back, I would be really happy and glad again. And at least unblocking me on facebook and have me back there would also be appreciating. But if you won't do any of those, then this is truly goodbye forever. At least I tried everything. I won't judge you for that. Even though you don't love me anymore and you hate me now, but deep down inside I will always love you, I will always care bout you, I will always support you, and I will always be in your heart. You will always be special to me. And I will never stop thinking about you. I know you deserve a lot better, and so do I. I wish for you a great and better life. If you don't want to reply right now, it's ok, I understand. Take all the time you need to think about it after reading all this. But if you feel ready to reply anytime, I'll be waiting for you with patience, no matter how long it takes. Until then, so long, my dear Jen. Thank you so much for reading all this. I hope you have a great day. I love you so much, forever and ever, 'till death and after death. I hope we can talk again in the future. Sending you hugs and kisses your way. Take good care. I still have faith in you, Jen. I always will, no matter what. Oh, and there's one last thing I have for you: " So, what are you thoughts on this?