I'm Trying...

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Buddy, do you really think that blocking this is going to make it disappear?
You cannot block everything in your way to self improvement.

You can block and repress whatever you want, guess what? that sh*t is not going anywhere! You are missing the mark big time here.

Expose yourself.
Embrace the fire. Face it

 

Your method SUCK.

Repression is going to make everything worse.

 

You can block stuff, but ultimately you can't rely on it.

I don't mean the security measures you've installed aren't dependable, I mean that in a context of.. Well heck, lets say cyborg solution. When blocking whether with the router or whatever digital system you are strictly focusing on the machine side, nothing is being done with the human side. For people who know computers it may be their strength and area of knowledge, but that is all the more reason why to start working on your own mind rather than just using it to work on digital information systems.

Possibility 1 - blocking but not changing the mind, if you get exposed somehow, maybe even by your own thoughts and a memory, live or recorded p-Sub type stimuli you may still act out
Possibility 2 - no blocking but changing your mind - even if you are inadvertently exposed to p or p-Sub, you will be stronger to resist acting on it.

What I like to see is people who have need for it use it, but get to a point where they don't need it because they have their mind changed enough so they don't need the training wheels so to speak. To me it isn't that it's not viable, it's in the context where you want to progress to that point which means it'd be toward the beginning of the process, whatever that looks like for someone.

Of course you can play it safe and do both, and maybe at some point you discover sexually suggestive stimuli won't do it or that you have no desire to bypass the security measures even if it is within your technical knowledge to do so. But obviously the human side is very different and it's a completely separate skillset, and it isn't like digital systems where you can "set it and forget it." I think a lot of people basically ignore the human side and treat the whole thing as a matter of access, but of course the irony is we ARE human. There's obviously great relevance for learning to work on that even if we don't do it professionally.

 

That sounds like a very religious and/or depressed interpretation of 12 Step philosophy. The official Nofap ebook isn't everything to everyone here and change doesn't mean "power" except possibly in the sense that knowledge is power, but that would imply you have to A. be open to the possibility the knowledge exists somewhere to give one that power and B. try to learn that. As a tech I don't think you can deny the logic that somewhere there may be knowledge that can give you the know-how even if you don't yet know about it, and without already knowing that yet it can't be judged as whether it can work for you.

But of course you are saying your life is too sad and pointless to save, so that statement isn't about whether it's possible but whether it's worth the effort. I think we can all agree that for many the life quality we have while addicted ISN'T worth saving - we want a better life. The general guess and hope is abstaining from PMO will do that or have these "benefits." I don't think it's that simple, but I think one can have a better life with other changes along with this one.

I would rather give you helpful information than just a pep talk to try to talk you out of this depression, but we need to talk specifics to even begin to know what's relevant to your situation. Still though there's plenty of information on the forum.