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Importance of reading peoples stories to fight PMO urges

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Candun, Feb 2, 2020.

  1. Candun

    Candun Fapstronaut

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    Hi

    I have been heavily addicted to PMO for many years since being exposed to it at about age 10 (17 now). I have been trying to live a life without it for the past year, with many streaks and many relapses along the way.

    My highest streak of 72 days ended late November, and since then it has felt like I had lost all the motivation and will I had to fight my addiction. I have spent the past couple of months constantly falling for the excuses that I used to never allow myself to listen to, engaging in PMO twice a day in some cases.

    I believe the reason I could no longer hold a streak is because I lost the constant reminder of what PMO truly does to you. My 72 day streak was easy when I would visit websites like this almost every day and remind myself the true consequences of allowing this addiction to consume you, as well as the rewards reaped from overcoming it. But when enough time passed without these reminders, I forgot the disgust for what kind of person PMO addiction turns me in to, as well as the pride of the person I am without it.

    I plan on resuming my PMO free lifestyle and coming here at least once every few days to read about what it has put people through and the consequences of allowing it to control you. And I would advise even people who feel free of PMO addiction to do the same at least once in a while. I used to only read posts on this forum, but I believe becoming a more active member of this community will help me finally kick this addiction.

    Sorry for any spelling/grammar mistakes, I just really had to get this off my chest before trying to sleep tonight.
     
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  2. rurolph

    rurolph Fapstronaut

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    hey, i'm totally with you and in a similar position. had my longest streak in the middle of 2019. i could almost savor how good it felt to have a craving a let it go so easily and not even come close to act on it. on the 3 month anniversary i relapsed thinking i was cured and could just MO like normal non-addicts and ruined everything until the end of the year. i started the year proud of myself and clean, thinking this was the year i beat this, then relapsed for the first time this year at the end of January and relapsed many times again in the lapse of two weeks. i feel no motivation, i feel like i already ruined this year, like i will never beat my 3 month streak, like it's all for nothing. i also want to beat my mild social media addiction tho, and checking this website every day is not an option. in fact 5 days out of the week i have little to no access to internet, alongside with a work schedule that goes from 5am to 9pm every day. i was wondering if you would mind being a particular kind of accountability partner to me, you could send me at least one post or article that inspired you to keep going every day or every other day or week? let me know if you could benefit of that sort of arrangement, you'd stay encouraged by knowing you're taking care of yourself and staying alert by having to support and feel "responsible" for your AP at the same time. no pressure tho!
    i will also of course in return try my best to write to you inspiring insight i've had, and you can do the same if you prefer that, or whatever i can do to help we can talk about it.
     
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  3. Johnny Bozo

    Johnny Bozo Fapstronaut

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    Nice. I went to this recovery meeting here last night and it was just me and the guy leading it but I think it prevents the wrong attitude from taking hold and growing just by going once a week.

    I might try to read a story regularly to prevent it first if I can as I don't handle the heat of the moment well at all.
     
  4. Candun

    Candun Fapstronaut

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    That sounds like a great idea!
    I have only ever tried doing NoFap alone, but I think having someone else to keep me on the straight and narrow and me to them would make beating my last streak a piece of cake!
     

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