In a bad way

azureblue

azureblue

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I used to consider myself straight, masculine and now I have been reduced to nothing by sissy hypnosis. I've ended up not just addicted to watching endless sissy hypno porn videos and audio files but I've actually made up my own which I have listened to underneath girly pop music songs while
watching fashion show hotties and squeezing my nipples and fingering my asshole wishing I was a woman and had a pussy.
I no longer look at women with the view to having sex with them. Now I look at them with a view to being them.

When I see a sexy woman walking I find myself
sucking my fingers even though I am turned off by dicks and I also swish and sway and wish I was them.
My sexual orientation is being used against me because when I get turned on when seeing a hot woman and my prostate begins tingling all I now want to do is
imagine sliding a butt plug up my asshole while a beautiful sexy feminine woman watches me.

My normal sexual feelings feel as if they have been hijacked. I see a great looking woman in high heels and I can actually imagine the straps against my own legs, the same with her dress, skirt etc. I have managed to abstain for months but the triggers seem to have gone too deep. I have seen there are Hypnosis videos to help you reset but honestly, I no longer trust what people put out there online. I have viewed Sissy Hypno vids where they tell you they are Sissy Reversal videos when in actual fact they are simply there to get you more hooked into the sissy shit.

I feel complete desperation over this. I had a beautiful girlfriend and lost her to this. I am now unemployed and depressed. I am happy to never look at pornography again, however, I worry that the hypnotic triggers are now permanent. I want to look at, be turned on by and have normal sex again with women rather than wishing I was them instead. Has anyone here successfully overcome this disgusting mind-warping fetish? I have to know there is an escape from all this headfuckery.
 
Hey @azureblue . Welcome to nofap. Recovery is always possible. there are some guys here I've seen struggling with this behavior... Maybe if you put your heads together, with an intention to recovery, the answers will come. Sorry recovery for this isn't fully addressed yet. I won't mention the guys names in the thread since I want to ask their permission first.
 
azureblue said:
I used to consider myself straight, masculine and now I have been reduced to nothing by sissy hypnosis. I've ended up not just addicted to watching endless sissy hypno porn videos and audio files but I've actually made up my own which I have listened to underneath girly pop music songs while
watching fashion show hotties and squeezing my nipples and fingering my asshole wishing I was a woman and had a pussy.
I no longer look at women with the view to having sex with them. Now I look at them with a view to being them.

When I see a sexy woman walking I find myself
sucking my fingers even though I am turned off by dicks and I also swish and sway and wish I was them.
My sexual orientation is being used against me because when I get turned on when seeing a hot woman and my prostate begins tingling all I now want to do is
imagine sliding a butt plug up my asshole while a beautiful sexy feminine woman watches me.

My normal sexual feelings feel as if they have been hijacked. I see a great looking woman in high heels and I can actually imagine the straps against my own legs, the same with her dress, skirt etc. I have managed to abstain for months but the triggers seem to have gone too deep. I have seen there are Hypnosis videos to help you reset but honestly, I no longer trust what people put out there online. I have viewed Sissy Hypno vids where they tell you they are Sissy Reversal videos when in actual fact they are simply there to get you more hooked into the sissy shit.

I feel complete desperation over this. I had a beautiful girlfriend and lost her to this. I am now unemployed and depressed. I am happy to never look at pornography again, however, I worry that the hypnotic triggers are now permanent. I want to look at, be turned on by and have normal sex again with women rather than wishing I was them instead. Has anyone here successfully overcome this disgusting mind-warping fetish? I have to know there is an escape from all this headfuckery.
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First, welcome! I am glad you're here.

Second, I must confess your situation is not something I am familiar with, so I am sorry I can't offer much that is specific. However, there are others here who have described similar situations, so maybe you can connect with others and learn from their experiences.

Third, my honest reaction is that you might want to talk to a psychologist with expertise in sexual fetishes. They exist and they can help.

Fourth, I do believe that simply disconnecting from porn and fantasy can do a lot to clear your head. I say that because for me, I became really caught up with another fantasy. I won't go into it -- unless you want me to, that's fine -- but trust me, it was very powerful for me. Getting away from porn and fantasy made a huge difference.

I hope you keep coming back. If I can do anything, let me know.
 
Hey @azureblue I have actually been in the same position you are. I started watching porn at age 15 and then later found sissy porn and then hypnosis. Just like you I wanted to be the women in the videos I watched. I would stay up for hours watching sissy hypnosis videos until I couldn't masturbate anymore. Then around age 17 I met a girl and I figured out that what I was doing was messed up and I wanted to stop, but I couldn't. The farthest I'd get would be a week then I would relapse. It was a grueling cycle, until she couldn't take it anymore and left me. After that I told myself I would not let this addiction ruin my life. For the first time in five years I hit a three month mark! I relapsed after a low point in my life, but I'm back at it again. I guess what I'm trying to say is this type of porn plays on your insecurities and makes you feel alone, but you aren't alone. I have had the same struggle as you and I'm almost back up to a month without it and I feel great. All of us here want to help and be helped, we all stand by each other to help get through our struggles. Keep fighting my friend the longer you abstain from sissy porn and just porn in general the better you will feel I promise. Even if you relapse just try again and keep trying, do one day at a time that's what I do. Keep going strong and if you have any questions you can ask me or the many others here. We all want to help because this is your life you deserve to be happy in it :).
 
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