What the fucking hell is this shity life, why is it so fucking hard to just be okay and have justice , is this too much to ask for. I just want justice for Gods sake,i feel like God has a grudge against me for no reason. I constantly feel bad , have no energy and have bad things happen to me constantly, i am thankful for not having a disease or being handicapped but what is this dark energy around me??? I respect everybody , i haven't hurt anyone in my life , when i talk i talk politely to others , never stole anything in my life , respected the old people , respected the young, never damaged the public good yet the universe has a huge grudge on me. I just want to have a job and feel normal . I see evil and ugly pieces of shit with beautiful girlfriends that are enjoying life yet they're liers , crooks and profiteers. I meet with someone and they instantly try their games on me , they want my money , my services or anything they can get for free , humans seem like piranhas that want to eat your flesh. Why is God tempting me so hard to be bad and evil , i am certain that if i become a douchebag succes and fortune will come by but i just can't digest that. Sorry guys i had to vent.