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In desperate need of help kicking my almost 9 year addiction

Balancing rebooting with studying.

  1. Jmoney5280

    Jmoney5280 New Fapstronaut

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    Hello everyone, I am new member and new to the whole NoFap concept. Right now I am in my second year at college and just turned 20, and I have been heavily addicted to porn since I was in middle school. I have tried breaking this habit on my own but have never succeeded for more than a month or two.

    My first interaction with porn was around sixth grade, it started with some pretty vanilla stuff but quickly evolved into femdom videos. Then I stumbled onto trans porn later that year and for whatever reason I'm just haven't been able to get it out of my head since then. From there I got into sissy, crossdressing, hypno, and chastity videos (to name a few).

    By the time I was in seventh grade I would regularly cross dress and pleasure myself with sex toys I stole from my parents room. There were quite a few times I'd almost been caught, but for the most part I did an ok job of hiding it from my friends and family.

    Throughout highschool I would go through cycles of buying women's clothes, lingerie, and sex toys only to keep them for a week before I threw them out. I don't want to think about how much money I've just thrown into this bottomless pit.

    This is my first time ever talking about this with anyone. I'm so tired of going through all this alone, and I'm tired of the shame, insecurity, and self hate it all brings.

    If anyone has any advice I am in desperate need of it.
     
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  2. Pauley

    Pauley Fapstronaut

    How old were you, when you first watched porn? I feel like you had the opportunity to watch a lot of porn i.e. unrestricted access to a computer (in your room perhaps)?
     
  3. wenguin1

    wenguin1 Fapstronaut

    The first thing I would do is to delete any social media you have. I would also install a website blocker for websites that might be triggering. I recommend Leechblock, which is a free Google Chrome extension. I use LeechBlock to block YouTube, Reddit, and Wikipedia, since they are time wasters and can trigger urges for me. I would try to stop using any electronic device, but go to a library or coffee shop if you need to do work.

    I know this might be embarrassing, but confess your problem to a trusted friend or family member. Personally, I did this with one of my friends at school, and it turned out that he also had a PMO addiction. And now, both of us are keeping each other accountable.
     
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  4. shszn

    shszn New Fapstronaut

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    I would advice two things, the main reason you fall into such a deep pit whenever you fail or go back into a downward spiral is because of the anxiety associated with the addiction, specifically to genres you may be struggling to leave behind. First of all I would suggest you try and adopt a mindset in which you know for yourself you don't like what you're ashamed of. Secondly, carry out a strict dopamine detox for at least 3 days. Don't focus too much on the superhuman benefits, rather returning from a downward spiral to normality (which is a huge improvement). Good luck
     
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  5. DR.DIRTYLIPS

    DR.DIRTYLIPS New Fapstronaut

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    (I use LeechBlock to block YouTube, Reddit, and Wikipedia) sorry but how is Wikipedia a time waster? and triggering? bruh - don't get me wrong I'm not trying to make fun or anything only its the first time I'm hearing such thing _ wiki honestly contain really good information if you know what is true and false
     

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