In need of desperate help

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DyingInside88

Fapstronaut
Just made this account hoping to make friends and seek help and advice from people in the process or those who have already made it. Today marks 1 month, I made it to 3 months but ended up relapsing due to a break up. I been depressed and sad and I feel alone. Even had urges to kill myself because I can not see light at the end of this long tragic tunnel . I been pmo'ing ever since I was 14 if I can recall. I'm 21 and have officially stopped. I feel as if I have the worse case in the world. I would pmo atleast 4 to 6 times a day for many many years, probably 6 or 8 years straight. I'm staying strong but I been reading some really scary sh*t and it leaves me with no hope and a damage feeling. I'm new to this and want to get into deeper discussion with you guys. please reply

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DyingInside88 said:
I'm staying strong but I been reading some really scary sh*t and it leaves me with no hope and a damage feeling. I'm new to this and want to get into deeper discussion with you guys. please reply
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What exactly does scare you?

Depression and feelings of hopelessness seem to be pretty common. I am going through this for 7 months already. People say it will pass. I am having a hard time too believing it. If you could describe your issues a bit more precise we can help you handle them.

Otherwise I hope you studied the problem of porn addiction well. If not you can start here: https://yourbrainonporn.com/
 
DyingInside88 said:
. I'm staying strong but I been reading some really scary sh*t and it leaves me with no hope and a damage feeling. I'm new to this and want to get into deeper discussion with you guys. please reply
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You can start by surrounding yourself with more positive material. Hang around in the success story thing for awhile.

I found that just being social, like really social, helps distract me from porn and I refuse to be in a bad mood when I'm outside.

But like saneagain said. Start by familiarizing yourself with your problem then start figuring out how to beat it.
 
One thing that has kept me going is to take all of the pain and use it as fuel. Use it to fight, use it to motivate. The way I've tried to see it is there are two paths ahead of us: one is to keep fapping and Pmo and pain and shame forever. The other path is to hurt temporarily and use it to change. Can't tell you that this will 'work' per se because I'm still in my first reboot, but have nearly made it to day 60 of no P by reframing the way that i look at this. Avoid the pain and it will continue, face it and you might just find a way through. I think the attempt is noble and will improve your soul even if you don't succeed at first, just work on today.

You are not alone, you are worth the effort and you are strong!
 
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