Hello, Let me start off by saying that I am new here and i'm very interested in becoming part of the community. I apologize if I do something wrong here as this is my first post. I am 24 years old and I have a porn addiction. I feel as though my addiction has become self destructive and has resulted in my diagnosed major depression. Please bear with me and i'm sorry if I ramble on. I discovered porn when I was about nine years old through nude magazines and things intensified ever since, especially when discovering internet pornography. It became a daily thing that I thought was pretty normal and it continued throughout my teen years up into being an adult. I don't think there's been a single day that I've went without masturbating which concerns me. Now I want to discuss the sick and twisted rabbit hole that I've been pulled into. When I first started watching porn, I would look up some pretty normal stuff, or things that people would consider as 'normal' male on female porn. As the years went on, this type of porn was not enough for me. I needed something more hardcore to get off to. And when I tell you I've seen 'everything', I mean it. I've gotten off to some of the most sick and disturbing things one could possibly think of. If it exists, I've masturbated to it at least once. It doesn't end there. For the past few years I've developed an obsession for Transgender/TG/TV/transwoman/transgendered person/Sissy porn, and more recently I got into Sissy Hypno porn. And let me tell you, it is devastating. During the younger years of my life, I never once was attracted to a male in any way, until I started watching TG porn. It reached a point in which I even wanted to 'become' one of them, and I became passively aroused by the male genitalia and anything having to do with it. It has warped my sexuality and I now actively identify as Bi-sexual. On April, Friday the 13th of this year, I attempted suicide and ended up in a Physic Ward for a week. It was quite literally the worst week of my life. I'm now getting treatment and i'm on anti-depressants but my porn addiction is still an issue for me. I've not once been in a relationship and I am also still a virgin, and I place most of the blame on pornography's twisted way of warping my view of women. This is my first and hopefully my final plea for help. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to live my life only looking forward to the next time I can be alone and get off things to that are simply not natural for humans to consume. I am so far gone that being attracted to men is not something that will change for me. Claiming that I am in dire need of help is an understatement.