Well, here it is. I'm an addict. By every term and definition. I've been needing to tell anyone but I have reclused because of PMO addiction and have no community or trust. The use of P*rn started out healthy and normal albeit I was young but it took a steep decline in my adolescents and as a young adult it is severely worse. I used to have regular relationships and courting, nice dates and romance. As they ended the p*rn use increased and the escapist tactic of "self pleasing" became a daily priority in my life, now it's no longer voluntary. I sleep for well into double digit hours because I'm so exhausted after full on hour after hour of p*rn consumption. This has hindered every aspect of my life, failing grades in college, inability to start or finish anything and I lost my job. I have tried to bargain with myself but I fail every time I try to stop, I need external help and new principles, standards and morals. I have severe social anxiety and I lost all confidence because of constant fapping. I've even lost weight and instead of working out I eat comfort food out of fap induced guilt and depression. I'm hoping to regain them and retake my life... it's both a relief and a burden to admit addiction right now but it's true. If I continue the PMO lifestyle I will lose all dreams and aspirations, I will fall short of my life goals or worse. Thank you for reading and any response(even criticism) is welcome and appreciated.