It was around grade 6 that I saw my first porn. A friend gave me pictures of people having sex on a floppy disc. Then, I looked at these pictures more out of inquisitiveness and excitement about what exactly sex. Even after that I was one of those few kids in my class who rarely watched porn. When I was in grade nine, I had access to better technologies such as faster internet and mobile phones that could play media content. While my parent's didn't buy me a phone till I was done with 10th grade, most of my friends did. And perhaps everyone I knew then had porn on their phones. Seeing how every guy used to watch porn I slowly perceived porn as a normal day to day activity. Then started my downward spiral towards porn addiction. After tenth grade, like everyone else, I started watching porn over the internet on a regular basis and used my phone to share new sex videos with friends. Back then this didn't bother me too much. Currently however, I feel like PMO is slowly taking over my life. For the past six months there has hardly been a day I haven't PMOed. I feel like I have to watch porn at least once to make my day productive. Also, for a few years now, I've experienced massive social anxiety, and have feel like my social skills lacking as compared to my peers. To make matters worse I feel pretty much satisfied with myself and feel hostility towards people as well as society. Also, I've experienced that my concentration and attention spans have decreased drastically and my brain often tends to float to sexual imaginations. Likewise, while I do enjoy the temporary high of pleasuring myself, deep down inside, I am filled with self loathe and self pity. Until a few days back I didn't have any clue as to what was going on in my life. (But to be frank, I still don't know much, only that I am suffering from inside and things truly need to change.) I was browsing the internet when I stumbled on this word nofap which caught my eyes. I learned about the NoFap revolution and the effects of PMO on guys life. It was shocking that so many of the negative things I have been experiencing resonated so loudly with the effects of PMO. That's when I decided to start my NoFap challenge (ney lifestyle).