It's been 4 years since I read about Nofap. I had my ups and downs but I have never been able to stick to that. My record is 28 days, after relapsing is hard for me to come back to it, sometimes it takes couple of months. Right now I can't even get past 1-2 weeks. Deep down I have a feeling that I don't want to quit. Even if I know what PMO doing to my mind and body I don't have enough willpower or motivation to overcome that inner self. I just don't know what to do. I have tried to look for middle ground like PMO once in week or something like that to decrease amount of PMO but that never worked. I tried meditation, cold showers, workout, looking for hobbies (didn't found them yet), writing journal. I just don't know what else I can do.