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Hey guys, I've never had an issue with watching porn, in fact, I don't watch it much (every other week), However, I am addicted to masturbation. The material I use instead is pictures of girls from Facebook/Instagram, some of whom I know personally or kind of know or sometimes just your classic Instagram model. I guess I get a high from it as I fantasize about being with them, usually in a really romantic way. However, for many years, I've understood that what I am doing is messed up but I haven't been able to stop completely. It's been at the point where it's just routine. I'll open up Instagram and start beating my meat because I'm bored or something and I'm sick of it.
Deep down I've wanted to stop for ages. I regret it as soon as I climax but I'm weak. I tell myself frequently that I'll stop tomorrow and then tomorrow comes and I say the same thing. It seems like an endless cycle. I managed to go 75 days over summer and I felt great. However, I've been on and off ever since. At the moment I'm in a cycle where I'll abstain for a day then the next day I'll give in and end up thinking something like, "ah I've already failed for today, might as well whip a few more out and restart tomorrow." So I would say around 10 times a week.
It would be greatly appreciated if any fellow astronauts on here would be willing to share a thought on my situation to help clear my head a bit. For example, is my habit as bad as I think it is or is it worse, should I be concerned, am I weak, etc. Please be brutally honest of what you think as it might set me straight.
If anyone has experienced something similar or knows of a forum related then let me know because I'm inexperienced at navigating the forums.
Deep down I've wanted to stop for ages. I regret it as soon as I climax but I'm weak. I tell myself frequently that I'll stop tomorrow and then tomorrow comes and I say the same thing. It seems like an endless cycle. I managed to go 75 days over summer and I felt great. However, I've been on and off ever since. At the moment I'm in a cycle where I'll abstain for a day then the next day I'll give in and end up thinking something like, "ah I've already failed for today, might as well whip a few more out and restart tomorrow." So I would say around 10 times a week.
It would be greatly appreciated if any fellow astronauts on here would be willing to share a thought on my situation to help clear my head a bit. For example, is my habit as bad as I think it is or is it worse, should I be concerned, am I weak, etc. Please be brutally honest of what you think as it might set me straight.
If anyone has experienced something similar or knows of a forum related then let me know because I'm inexperienced at navigating the forums.