Intro

I’m joining NoFap today because I just PMO’d to gay porn. I felt like I was going to puke afterwords. I’ve been watching porn since I was 13 I’m now 23, and I was addicted as early as high school. A cycle of increased “taboo-ness” marked my descent into porn addiction. After “regular” scenes couldn’t cut it for me, I started watching incest/family porn until in college, I clicked transwoman porn to see what that was. I couldn’t get enough of it and now, 10 years down the line from starting watching porn I watched gay porn and orgasmed. I’ve never been gay in my life. I’ve had several girlfriends whom I was very attracted to, but with each one I struggled immensely to ejacualte during intercourse. It didn’t happen most times, and I walked away from sex feeling good (because sex is fun!) but at the same time dissatisfied. I would just go finish myself off later. Now that college is over, my brain moved on to the next hardest thing, gay porn, and I’ve never felt worse. I am positive my porn addiction has damaged my brain and I am determined to quit, in order to get my psyche back, not feel ashamed at myself, and be able to have healthier relationships with women. I’m on a lonely military base miles from anyone or anything at the moment so it’s hard to not masturbate, but if anyone has strategies, or words of encouragement to help me overcome this destructive addiction I would appreciate it. I really hope this works.