introducing myself after 24 days of nofap so far

Hi all rebooting fapstronauts!

I started using porn from when i was 14 years. I am 40+ so at that time it was porn magazines.
I masturbated about 2-3 times a day.

Later on when i got access to internet, i started to watch clips but also used chat rooms like IRC to set up scenarios and fantasies.
I found the BDSM area. I never thought about that it was an addicted minds effort to seek more sensation. The scenarios became more advanced and severe.
Since i am a a quite "visually thinking" person, it made it even worse, since i could easily imagine scenarios and project them visually.

Later on i joined Second life, and that was even more devastating. Suddenly i could walk around in a virtual world with even more options for role-plays and porn scenarios. Second life is full of porn addicts, many women too, which in a way made it worse, because the whole thing feel "normal", and not creepy.
My ED got even worse. I started to like she males, very fat women , etc.

I never thought that porn could be an addiction, since i learned that addiction could only come from physical drugs or eventually gambling for money. Instead i praised my imagination and thought of myself as creative, the more odd and advanced porn scenarios i discovered.


I tried a couple of times to "quit", but that was never with 100 % commitment.

Luckily a transwoman escort in SEcond life made me realize i was addicted and explained the reason for my severe ED.

It came like a relief, now i suddenly felt 100 % motivated to quit. I logged out of second life and started to look for forums (where found this one, NOfap).

I quit cold turkey.


My progress so far:

First week was no problem. But after a week the urges comes to watch porn or "check out". Best way is to just neglect that urges. They will pass after some minute.

I experience withdrawal symptoms like: Nightly sweatings, insomnia, anxiety, irritable stomach. Not all days are bad though. I take one day at a time.


What i think helps me is that i have quit smoking once and succedded (1 1/2 year free from tobacco so far), it makes it a bit easier to quit another addiction. I also do intermittent fasting, where i abstain for food for 24 hours. I think that helps me handle "urges and impulses".

My motto is: "To win something you need to sacrifice something".


good luck guys
/Mdz