Introduction - Hello there!

Fraggernaught

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Hi all! I've come to this place in search of help overcoming my addiction to explicit sexual imagery, my compulsive sexual behaviors, and to gain support for my sexually related, trauma induced anxiety and paranoia.

I guess to be candid about things I'll just go ahead and state that pornography has been in my life since I was a preteen. Now as an adult it has dramatically impacted my ability function in everyday life and has drastically reduced my over quality of life. I've been on a rollercoaster trying to quit on my own for the past two or even three years. My good friends and family have given me much support and still it was not enough to shake my urges. Thus I've been driven further and further to find relief from my affliction. I've attempted counseling and medication with little success. And am now in a dark place where I fear I am just a broke human being with no hope of establishing a balanced and healthy mind. I've found myself in very dangerous situations due to my affliction and I'm desperate for help.

I've never used an online forum before so I hope this is the right step towards lasting recovery and the beginning of a new healthy me.

On a more positive note, outside of my affliction I consider myself to be an average guy who loves life. I have many things I enjoy doing such as playing video games, being in the outdoors and marveling at the beauty of nature. I love going to museums and orchestras. And I like to write science fiction in my free time. I'm also attending a college to earn my associate in applied sciences while also working full time in health care.
 
(General Kenobi) Brother, welcome to the site. You are open to to friends and family and that is another level of bravery I admire. I only have two people who know about my addiction in real life and I hope to kick it before others find out. You made the right choice coming on this forum. It has helped me more that I could ever help myself in the three weeks I have been active here. Now first off there is hope. You will beat this and you will have a healthy mind. Not tomorrow, not next week or even next year. But these small changes you implement into your life will help you build the life you want. I am glad you found fulfillment and joy in your life and glad you are in college for higher education. Education is so important! The next steps for you I believe are to identify triggers (mine is night scrolling and showers with a phone nearby) and ways to combat them (early bedtime and just not listening to music as I shower). Take a deep breather and have the confidence that I have in you. You will beat this!
-Abstainer
 
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