Hi all - Ironically I stumbled upon the NoFap subreddit searching for eye candy. I'm glad I've come up on this, and it couldn't have come at a better time. I'm 42 and was exposed to pornography at about 8 or 9 and have been struggling with it since then. As you're well aware (or could easily imagine), there is a significant amount of guilt and shame that I carry around. In addition, I became a Christian at 16 and expected the problem to just go away, but it didn't. Similarly, when I got married I figured that marriage would be the fix, but nope. So here I am - I have a great family and am tired of hiding in the shadows. I've often thought about trying to answer any questions my kids might have about pornography, but there is no way that I could honestly answer them unless it involves explaining how corrosive it is. Anyway, to add to the mix; I also carry the guilt and shame that come from being in the church and feeling the dichotomy of what I believe to be truth and what my human nature longs for. I'm tired of carrying this burden and could really benefit from the support system that I don't feel that I have IRL and am glad to have stumbled upon this forum. Just putting this into writing where I can make myself accountable is in itself a big step and immediately makes me feel hopeful for the healing to come.