Guitarvilan
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I'm an almost 22 yr old male in his last semester of college for a while. I've struggled with PMO for as long as I can remember. I think it started in middle school and has taken over a significant portion of my life ever since. My two most recent relationships have both been long term with my most recent about to hit 2 years this May. Being in a long term relationship, for me, makes everything so much harder. After getting through all the awkward "get to know you" stages, we are both very comfortable with one another. We sometimes sleep in the same bed, and spend countless hours together almost daily. We are both on board with abstaining from sex until marriage, but every passing day gets more and more difficult. Not to mention I plan on proposing as soon as I have a job in the Fall. She doesn't know yet, and I hate keeping it to myself especially since I have these lustful thoughts nearly every day about what it will be like once I FINALLY marry the woman of my dreams.
Although we are both on board for waiting, she doesn't make it any easier when she cheekily shuts me down with "not 'til we're married." She doesn't realize how close that day really is in my mind. I hate waiting, but I know it will make us all the more strong because of it. Just a couple of nights ago, she told me "if you asked me to marry you right now, I'd say yes" and now all the thoughts are coming in full force. Pray for me that I make it through these last few months before I can get a job and pop the question.
Although we are both on board for waiting, she doesn't make it any easier when she cheekily shuts me down with "not 'til we're married." She doesn't realize how close that day really is in my mind. I hate waiting, but I know it will make us all the more strong because of it. Just a couple of nights ago, she told me "if you asked me to marry you right now, I'd say yes" and now all the thoughts are coming in full force. Pray for me that I make it through these last few months before I can get a job and pop the question.
