hi! i've been Pmo'ing since 10+ years...there was only once in the past 15 years that I was able to abstrain from MO for 60 days....so I've been jacking off more than 30 times a month. I feel like I got 0 courage. I feel confident and good when I am at home by myself...but when I step outside, almost all conversations are kinda awkward...i feel uncomfortable to greet people or hold conversations...i'm anxious all the time. There wasn't a time when I believed I can do sth, struggled hard and emerged victorious...i just keep postponing hard work. I feel like I have 0 discipline. as soon as things are hard, I quit. If i feel lazy, I quit. Thats why it wasn't possible for me to form any habit...i wanna read books, workout regularly, learn a musical instrument....but on day 3 or 4 I quit. Somehow I feel PMO has changing me to be a degenerate. any 1 else feel the same about themselves?