My girl leaves in another city & we can't have regular sex often. We sometimes do virtual sex. But it's basically just a masturbation under supervision. She's not a seduction expert and she doesn't know how to drive me to pleasure. I am quite polyamorous and she's very jealous and superstitious. I don't want to upset her but I can't stay like this either. I can't explain to her and I can't reach such level of understanding that sex and commitment are different things. It's depressing. I was willing to do nofap to transform my energy into sexual freedom. I have met my girlfriend and thank's God, I am really grateful. But I still suffer. I feel very alienated and lonely. I don't have her and I can't have anyone else. If I do, I have to hide my feelings, I can't express love. I have to it on the down low and feel guilt. What's wrong with me? Is it me, who's just spoiled, a pervert sex-addict or is it else? How to solve dilemma? Please help!