I'm really not sure. I've started going to the bar once a week and hitting on girls with a friend. It was something I've always avoided because "it wasn't my thing", or "I needed to work towards my future as a scientist". But we realized it was way more fun than those fruitless nights on Tinder or discussing eternal loneliness with some friends over beer. And strangely enough, it doesn't really clash with my motivation towards research or working out. Many of the people I work with and learn from at uni are fully committed to research, and I respect that. I admire them. But then there are those who love their career and can still enjoy a wild night or two in between. And honestly, I think that's who I've always wanted to be. Hybrid man. I don't want to just wait for the right person to come along anymore. But still... The motivation to become more confident with girls, the desire to train towards that goal...is this all just a sign of weakness, my inability to focus on what's truly important(becoming an independent scientist, in my case)? Is it wrong to want to do away with PMO but still want to flirt with random girls? Will I eventually hit a wall if I try to pursue both? Just a confused addict. Thanks for reading, any kind of opinion or criticism is appreciated.