Hello, i am new at nofap. I am indonesian. Sorry if my english bad. So this, i am 18 and i have addicted to pmo since i was 11 probably. When i was 11-16 i really couldn't handle my drive to pmo, because i didn't know hazardous of pmo. And i felt normal. But i thought that i had some differences with my other friends, i didn't like to make eye-contact with girls, and i never talk to them properly, perhaps just talk about something important once or twice. And i sometimes hate to socialize with others when i am at home. I felt something stuck in my brain. I felt an extreme laziness for years. I thought it was normal, i thought it was me that are lazy, anti-social, girl-phobia, unmotivated, lack of energy. I think other people different with me. But recently i read that it was the impact from pmo. I realized that i need to change my life, i can't do this anymore. I can't stick on the same cycle. My 18 yo friends have achieved many things in their young age while i still stay watch women naked on my phone and am grabbing my dick at my bed. How pathetic. But the good news is now i can handle my drive a little bit. I used to reboot and my best streak is 60+ days and i didn't know nofap yet. In these 60+ days i am really religionist. I never watch tv because there is many 'sexy and beautiful girl' in tv. If I see a beautiful girl at the street, i tried to avoid my look into them. I just wanna avoid everything that could make me pmo. I never touch my genital except when i shower or take a pee. I approaching and praying to God everyday. I never waste my time in something unbenefical. I really felt awesome on that time. And somehow, in the 60s day, i felt so horny that i couldn't handle it. I tried everything to avoid this drive. But i really can't do it. And i concluded that sperm is something need to be excluded from genital. There is no way to go. It is a nature of man. And now i am thinking about marriage, "perhaps i need to marry". I don't know but my friends said that if you still can't change yourself from pmo, marriage means nothing, you will pmo even if you already have a wife. I am a muslim and i know have a sex before marriage is a big sin. I want to ask, is there someone here who has get married but still do pmo?