Is something wrong with me?

Do not give up hope. Sometimes there is miraculous deliverance from temptation, but in my experience God usually works slowly over time as he walks us toward freedom. He can deliver us immediately from the messes we get into, but he wants our hearts to change so we no longer desire sin and instead trust in him completely for fulfillment. Heart change takes time.

I was trapped in PMO for 30 years. It has taken me six years of hard work in recovery to find freedom from desiring that junk. Read my journal for details; it's all in there. But don't be discouraged -- after 16 years, this is going to take you more than an afternoon of intense prayer to overcome.

If I may be of service to you in accountability or any other way, please feel welcome to reach out any time.

 

Yes, there is something wrong with you, as with everyone, it's called sin.
Buuuuut, the great thing is that unlike unbelievers we are not slaves of sin anymore (although it might still feel like it), but have been freed by God.

You're probably saying at this point: yeah, I've heard it before but it's not working.

I know the feeling... God has made a miracle in my life regarding P, (now I barely even think about it), but left me to continue fighting M seemingly on my own...

My understanding is that He does want us to fight, to win, to grow stronger, in order to level up; if we can't resist this temptation, how could we possibly bear torture, humiliation or death for His name (as I hope never happens, but might)??

When we are dieting or fasting, the urge to eat is present and cravings are very strong, but unless we persevere, ignore the cravings to the best of our ability, and keep moving, we won't lose weight...
I think it's a similar story with any addiction or craving, God might not take it away spontaneously, but He does give us the strength, and He does help us.

Honestly, how many times when about to sin have you been miraculously interrupted or had your consciousness shout at you?
Personally many times.

My sins are my fault only, I wasn't helpless, I was lazy and stupid, and God gave me sooo many chances to back up and stop.
Thank God I am forgiven.

 

Brother dont give up because you are forgiven of your sins in Christ. Ive been fighting PMO for a year now and been addicted for 6 years. I know exactly how you feel brother but God has a plan for you that will make you prosperous! In this pain were going through, every temptation, God always makes bad situations into Good ones. In our pain God can teach us and become better people. I have many nights i feel like ill never be free from my sin but God reminds me of the cross and how Jesus took my sins and overcame death. This is easy to say but hard to do but have faith in him, surrender to Christ and you will be set free. You can overcome with him in anything especially when you have little faith, a little faith can move mountains in your life. God will never forsake you nor leave you. Also that is great youve confessed your sins, thats a step towards recovery with God. Always know God doesn't cause suffering but can turn it into something beautiful for you. God bless you brother and keep on going!