Is this a good place to talk about my situation?

I feel sexually confused, I seem to be aroused by some machostic acts, joi videos and ballbusting I don't think I would want these in real life, it would be painful and I dont like being ordered, other femdom acts(penging, cuckoldry) turn me off, today I didnt feel like masturbating but I watched some joi videos I found them arousing I get a certain stimuli watching them, I think it would be in my best interest to stop watching them so I've come here,