Is this feeling common among rebooters/relapsers?

People also feel that when they finish reading a good serie(tv or book) or just finished a videogame, athletes have also been know to feel that after a long competition; i am not sure if this is what you feel but it should pass in a couple of days at most.

 

Dude. I'm onboard with you 100% I also long for love, empathy, friendship; the little things in life. It's that innate feeling of the germanic word 'Heim', aka Home. One day you feel awesome and your path seems clear; you're optimistic. But then the next day, or later that very same day, the urges creep in, the escapist world; porn, sex, fantasy and fake life.

Porn has seriously messed up my brain. It's so bad I question my sexuality at times by escaping into the world of porn and especially fantasy. It's crazy how morally/ethically one can be against curtain things in life, but indulge themselves in the complete opposite. And when we relapse; its poof -just like that- back to normal.

Like you said: "The question is, is it some trick your brain plays on you to fall back into the old rut?", I believe that to be truth. We are not our addiction; we should fight, and embrace life.

 

I get that feeling you're talking about my friend. That same emptiness that you feel might've been originally "filled" by your porn use, only to then leave you more lonely and depressed, as it was the case for me. These types of feelings are normal after being addicted to porn and trying to quit, and while I'd go out and try to fix them by making more friends and getting in a relationship, it is very hard to do right now because of the current world situation.
Don't let your urges take you over and lead you to relapse. What we're going through right now is temporary, meaning that it won't last forever. That being said we must keep a strong mental state throughout this time and not let our emotions lead us back to what we were before. Instead we must focus on getting rid of porn and masturbation as forms of escapism, and on becoming the best versions of ourselves that we can be so that the day we return back to a normal world we can live a completely different and better life.

I'm guessing so. We're all so used to this feeling of fake pleasure that as soon as we stop getting it, our body and mind react in strange ways.
Also, support from IRL people is very crucial, as it kills the secrecy of your actions and puts their pressure on you to not relapse. Plus they are other beings to hang around and talk with about anything, and us humans are a very social species, so its best to have friends and family close to you, or at least talk to them online or on the phone when you can.