Once when i was 10-11 (i think) i had a gay phase but it really was a phase because at that time i was an edgy cringe kid (acting like im depressed) and i thought that being gay was soo cool and i wanted that cool feeling. After 1 year i grew out of that cringe phase and i realised that im into girls. Since then i never had a gay thought. But since i started nofap i started having gay thoughts. Is this hocd?