Is this normal?

I've seen others report this. I don't have any solutions, though.

 

I had the same problem. I was going on my PMO-less journey or the nofap journey and I used to go every 2-3 days. 11 days into it and all this pent up energy is building inside me and I feel full of rage all the time. Anything and everything could trigger me and the only thing that helped me was cultivation of a habit. IdI consciously make effort to realize my behavior and excuse myself and go drink a glass of water. Same with occufenocc of any sexual thoughts....went on to 25 days....then one day I smoked pot and I guess I couldn't control it anymore and I relapsed. I've begun my journey again and this time I'm doing it more cautiously.

 

Hey Theultimatefighter_21, Captain Cornelius here! I can relate to your situation, in that sometimes I myself have had a deliverance of sorts, a newfound freedom, and noticed myself still doing things in my life that I didn't like doing, things that I regreted, things that had me say, "I'm supposed to be better and different now. Why did I just do that?"

#1 - Though abstaining from masturbation to pornography and whatnot may give freedom, people who don't masturbate, neither watch pornography, or masturbate to pornography still do things, so whether one abstains from it or not they may still do it. What we do is what we've already done in one way or another, so even after the 'battle' is won there still may be wars, or even after the 'war' is won, over and done with, there still are 'battles', and vice-versa, for such is life. Knowing this will bring you a lot more peace, and help you focus on the bigger picture, that we all struggle with things, (I do too), and it's a battle every day.

#2 - Like some people drink alchohol and may feel calmer, more cool and relaxed, yet crash, or kids may eat sugar and feel stronger, or more upbeat, yet crash, so can one do things, like 'fap,' and temporarily feel better, but there are still consequences for our actions. You know, what we put in is what we'll get out. It's typical for someone to fight with all the war in their heart. I mean, with pornography it is self-destruction, one person destroying another; one individual hating another person out in the open, and if we watch that all day long, or over and over, and it gets in us, how is it not going to come out? I mean, we eat food and it comes out, or drink drink and it comes out, so if we eat pornography through our eyes or drink all that hate and war in through our ears how it is not going to come out ... in our actions. You know? Does that make sense?

Pornography is cruelty man; it's nothing but hate behind curtains, death in a hospital covered by blurry glass where people can't see correctly from the outside and those inside can plainly see what they're doing but are blind to the effect it's having on others, for if we really knew what our actions did we wouldn't do it.

Nevertheless man, hold on to your not wanting to hurt people and keep on going on. It's all about steady progress. Take it day by day and continually learn from your problems. Try and write down things more and think about them from different angles, seeing what you can learn each time. That way you'll become a different person over time, for it's on the inside that we find who we really are. Keep your head up. Keep asking questions and looking for the truth, bro. You can do it!

 

Wow. I want this power.

 

I experience this anger too and it ends up getting vented out on other people. You've nust made me realise that this can be a syptom of rebooting. When I get angry like this I vigorously exercise until I'm exhausted and then I take a warm-hot shower which calms me right down. Try it and see if it works.

 

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