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Is this relapse ?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Black_Knight 1998, Jun 18, 2020.

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  1. Jun 18, 2020 #1
    Black_Knight 1998

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    Hi guys today is the 20th day , since 3 days I'm having a strong urge but I resist . But
    Today I had sever urge and I was close to relapse I rubbed my self to masturbate but I couldn't even erect my penis ,by the way I felt I wanna go to the bathroom ,when i was in the bathroom I started to think what's after masturbation it will be a relapse and there's big potential that I'll watch porn after therefore I'll stay in the relapse cycle for at least 2 or 3 days and this pain and thoughts I have will fade. So after getting out of the bathroom I went to sleep. But I picked up my phone and started to surf some ads to watch and girl in pervert clothes because I was still wanna masturbate ,but I didn't find anything in this ads ,so I tried to sleep and I could sleep for 2 hours. And now I have this question
    Is rubbing my self (although I didn't have erection ) relapse or not ? I think it's not even a edging .

    What's your advice if I had this sever urge again?

    I decided that I won't do anything today I'll just play some games and watch some anime .
    Thanks in advance for everyone
     
    Black_Knight 1998, Jun 18, 2020
    Black_Knight 1998, Jun 18, 2020
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  2. Jun 18, 2020 #2
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    I think it is good you didn't gave in completely and resisted your urge quite well! Is this your first time doing a reboot?

    More important than a streak or numbers is that you continue your journey and that you are not depressed or upset because of such an incident. The goal of us should not be the numbers but being able to control our urges and get rid of unhealthy habits! We are not here to judge just to support you. No matter how your goal looks in detail. You can set your own limitations and goals. I for my part only will track the days at the beginning to keep me motivated but later on I plan to remove day tracker. I feel it will hinder me to progress in a more natural way where I won't focus so much aspects of my life on my addition.

    Keep up the good work and stay focused and you quite will reach your next 20 days without incident again! :)
     
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  3. Jun 18, 2020 #3
    Black_Knight 1998

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    Thanks bro
    But it's not my first time , I started nofap 2.5 years ago. And I could reach 60 days for 2 times before.
    Wish you happy free life :)
     
    Black_Knight 1998, Jun 18, 2020
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