Is this releapse??

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by EnlightedSoul, Apr 28, 2016.

  1. EnlightedSoul

    EnlightedSoul Fapstronaut

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    Im so mad at me.When i woked up, my boner was mild and i was go to pee, after pee, yes it is ridicilous xD, i was staring at a mirror to see how my dick is big when it is in hard, and it gets hard more and more and i was exepriened some kind of maybe dopaminoe rush.Right after that i stopped doing that because i saw verry little one drop of pre-cum.Its my last time for this bullsh*t.Im wondering if it could be releapse? Im on 54 day of NoFap...
     
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  2. hej då

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    Hm...I've been told that it's a relapse, sorry to tell you that.
     
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  3. Jodokus

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    I see no relapse. 54 day of NoFap is great! If I was you I wouldn't expect a growth of your dick from NoFap. Rather expect personal growth!

    So you tested it out and it worked. What surprise :D Now you know. No more testings I suggest. (Other guy "test" how to react to porn after a while or "test" what will happen if they stroke it.)

    Have a good day!
     
  4. EnlightedSoul

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    Huh, i realize that i need more days, even more months to experience personal growth, because, honesty, i screwed up my personality from overmasturbating and my negative effects from weed (weed just helped overmast. effects to bring up to surface and boost them).I experienced relief from NoFap but no "superpowers" at all, and i belive it will be shown after all this withdrawals :) . But about testings.. no more idiotic situations like today.Have nice day u too :)
     
  5. hej då

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    Could it be possible that you got some Superpowers but you just don't notice them or anything like that?
     
  6. EnlightedSoul

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    Yes, i experienced some benefits.I'll try to descriebe my situation.Look this as a some scale.Because of over m and weed, im on -10 in, but when i started NoFap i was in better positions, and at this moment im on 0 at this scale, and as long i would be on NoFap my progress in scale will be better :)
     
  7. quit4life

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    Won't really call that a relapse as you didn't watch porn and stopped just when lube started coming out. Good luck for the future!
     
  8. hej då

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    Glad to read that.
    Just occurred to me:
    For a disabled person walking is a superpower but for a healthy person, flying is superpower.
    So you are walking now.
    Nice.
     
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  9. - YUGEN

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    Affirmative, relapse.
     
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  10. Jodokus

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    I think it depends what promises one has given to oneself and the community (->counters) and what one wants to achieve. One should take into account the status quo and make realistic targets and long-term goals.
     
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  11. Maybe you left out some details but it seems like you just stood there and looked at your thing. So no relapse.
     
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  12. EnlightedSoul

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    Thanks people :) Yes, im only stared at mirror posing with my hard boner, i don't had any fantasy and pre-cum just passed out, even if i can say pre-cum because really it was in abnormal litle amount, i even suprised how i saw this but ok. :)
     
  13. hej då

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    Then why did I think that you were edging...yeah definetely not a relpase
     
  14. Did you edge to get hard while you looked at yourself in the mirror?Or did you stand there and got an erection leading to some pre-cum coming out?
     
  15. EnlightedSoul

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    No, i didn't even touch my dick, i was only staring at my dick in mirror, just to see how it look like from distance, boner become hard and when i saw "microscopic" size water coming from dick, some feeling overflows me, not hapiness or how porn users descriebe "dopamine rush" (i wasn't ever watch porn, because i fapped to my verry powerfull imagination), but some type of "alert" energy. :)
     
  16. - YUGEN

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    Negative. Not a relapse.
     
  17. - YUGEN

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    I interpreted his first post as he had fantasizied. If that happens you gotta be strict on yourself. Discipline is a huge tool in overcoming our old-selfs.
     
  18. 8BitsOfStuggling

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    This conversation actually has posed itself as quite comical to me. Why you ask? Because of the semantics that is being debated. Who cares if he touched it, held it, or what. @EnlightedSoul, the thing you need to recognize with your healing is that only you can define what is an actual relapse for you. However, take careful heed to not stack the odds against you. For instance, if you say that it is a relapse if you wake up with morning wood, you have slanted the odds impossibly against you. Same thing with a wet dream (nocturnal emission). Those are aspects of your body that are natural and uncontrollable by you. However, don't fool yourself. It is best if you establish what your goals are; if you haven't formally done so I recommend you stop and do so now. Are your goals to not M? How about O? Or maybe you just don't want to watch P? Are you looking to stop from lusting? Self loathing? Teasing?

    These are questions that must be answered in order to set yourself up for success. You didn't PMO, so if you are doing no PMO than you didn't relapse. If you are doing no teasing too, than perhaps you entertained it longer than you wanted, the choice is ultimately yours. Just remember, natural body responses you can't control, don't let yourself fall into a shame scheme because you had a natural reaction. They happen.
     
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  19. Well you you didn't relapse.Keep marching forward brother!:)
     
  20. IGY

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    This is a very clear, simple explanation.

    So, why all the confused advice in this thread? The guy says that he stared at his semi-erect dick and it got harder and eventually a bead of precum appeared. What is unclear about this? No reset necessary. Stop confusing the poor lad! :rolleyes:
     

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