Is Watching Yourself MB Considered Watching Porn?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by MissionPossible, Sep 18, 2018.

Is MB while watching a video of yourself MB considered watching porn?

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  1. MissionPossible

    MissionPossible Fapstronaut

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    Hey everyone!
    The other day, I was on an 8 day streak which I hadn't reached in over a year. But due to how I view myself, I decided to go into the deep end and video taped myself MB. I relapsed by watching myself. So, is this considered watching porn?

    I appreciate this community tremendously. Thank you in advance for the help :)
     
  2. Resurrected

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    So you watched how you jerking off while jerking off? Yes, I think it's porn.
     
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  3. horny nerd

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    There is some fetish that involves this. I suggest you delete that video and don't think about it too much. Just think of this as some weird slip up. This is definitely porn. If someone else watched your video they would also classify it as porn.
     
  4. Bonhomme

    Bonhomme Fapstronaut

    My two cents would be that any visual stimuli that isn't a partner should be considered porn if you're on a reboot.

    If I'd, say, MB while watching and becoming aroused from a "non-pornographic" picture I'd see that as using a substitute for porn which could be argued is just as bad (if it's triggering your brain to become aroused from the bare visual stimulation instead of a situation/partner).

    My whole point of NoFap is an attempt to re-wire my brain, as I feel it's been numbed from visuals (in this case, as in most, porn). I don't want to replace porn with something else. Therefor, I would reset my tracker.
     
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  5. Bonhomme

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    To clarify; I'm not even sure I would consider your video a substitute. It's a video of someone MBing, hence I'd say it's porn - especially if it actually arouses you in a similar way.
     
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  6. Yes, I think it is porn too.
     
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  7. Yes!!!Its like porn.Its relapsed
     
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  8. MissionPossible

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    I appreciate everyone's feedback and different viewpoints.
    I have since deleted the video, reset my tracker, and am moving forward with my goals. It's definitely porn, and just another thing to overcome!
     
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  9. Hi! Yep it's a porn sub. I was doing the same thing, videoing myself playing with myself. Didn't MO to them but found myself wanting to watch them all the time for the nice hazy dopamine rush.

    I also used to look at my bits in a mirror a lot.. turns out I was using that as a porn sub too.

    I was doing this stuff a month ago and I ended up MO'ing 8 days in a row because I was keeping my arousal artificially elevated with it.
     
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  10. Bonhomme

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    It’s positive that you question and reflect on behaviour you’re not 100% sure about, and that you ask on top of that.

    A slip is just a slip after all, good to see your using it as a lesson and motivator to move past it. Keep it up!
     
  11. Jesus man, that's some strange stuff. Not judging you or anything, but you know when you're trying to find a video on PornHub, and then the video ends or something, then you see your reflection on your monitor when it's black? You get to see the stupid, ugly look on your face as you're edging. That turns me off 120% of the time.

    Then again, I don't think I'm extremely attractive. You might be, I guess.
     
  12. Uncomfortably Numb

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    Whether it's porn or not is irrelevant in my mind... I would consider it an actual aid to NoFap.
    The very thought of watching myself do this disgusting and demeaning act would surely make me stop!
     
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  13. Mattew

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    It's for sure a behavior that comes out of porn addiction, so, porn or not, you should absolutely cut it out.
     
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  14. MasterRoshi

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    It depends on your goals and your addictions.

    For me PMO created intense isolation where I was basically in a sexual and emotional relationship with myself; doing everything possible to give myself pleasure. Most of my acts didn’t involve other people.

    I watched porn every single day for 4+ hours. But I also spent lots of time playing with myself and not watching porn.

    So my goals for sobriety is to break that isolated sexual lifestyle, and instead save my sexual release for my sexual partner.

    Everyone’s goal is different, but I would say that most PMO addicts on here experience similar levels of loneliness and isolation due to PMO by ourselves. If you’re like me I would say avoid doing stuff like that. It will help out dramatically with recovery from this.

    I think the greatest thing I did was hard mode no PMO of any kind. My sexual preferences are balancing out and I’m gettting better.
     
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  15. MissionPossible

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    Wow, I never really thought about all those things. Thank you for sharing and helping me realize that type of artificial arousal.
     
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  16. MissionPossible

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    Thank you for sharing. The type of behavior you describe in yourself is something I find doing frequently. "Isolated sexual lifestyle" defines me extremely well.
     
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