Fapped since i was like 10/11 Never had any thought that I was into guys at all back then. Because I smoked alot of weed I got a panic attack. Had medication for 10 years and I felt it changed me for good. Im not that guy I was back then. I fapped to different kind of porn which also had Gay and shemale in it. I only liked the parts where the guy had a big cock or the girl. Dont like the kissing and stuff. Back then I had periods I fapped to this for like 1/2/3 days and then went back to "normal" porn. Which had fisting, beating, pissing, bondage in it, So not that normal. I had a 34 streak of nofap and felt great besides the fact I had problems getting over my ex girlfriend. The period I was with my girlfriend I had no gay thoughts whatsoever, I did not watch alot of porn also. Saturday I had a big set back, woke up super early and slept short to go to a seminar. When I sleep short or wake up early I have more problems dealing with issues. At the seminar I met 2 guys that I got impressed by. They were good looking and had some muscle. My mind got carried away big time from then. On my way home later I thought about gay porn and went home and fapped later. Not to gay porn tho. Not to any porn or thought. The last couple of days im struggling when I see a good looking guy and think im into guys now. Its feels like im obsesively watching to that guy or guys. Im lost and it messes up the way I feel. Can anyone help me or give me some advice please.